Way of Transformation - Lesson Eight
Now, we begin.
And indeed, once again, greetings unto you, beloved and holy friends. We come forth to abide with you because you have asked. We come forth to abide with you because we are a part of you. We exist where you are. We abide as the Truth of what you are.
Therefore, beloved friends, please well understand that when we reach back into time, into the field of what you call physicality to create a communication medium with you, we do not come to you from some other location, we come forth unto you from the depth–the Heart, the Essence — of that which Mind is, that which Love is, that which Consciousness emerges from. We come forth from Reality. And we join with you in the only place that genuine communication can occur–in Reality.
This can only mean that in those moments when you feel–not merely intellectually consider–but when you feel yourself immediately and truly comprehending that which is communicated, or mediated by the words that we would choose, it means that, in that moment, you do not abide in time, you do not abide in illusion, you abide in Reality. And in that moment, there is, quite literally, no distance between us.
We speak here of distance, not just in what you would think of as physical terms, but there is also no distance between us qualitatively. That is, in that moment when you receive Truth, it is not the case that we are above you, beyond you, or have even gone ahead of you a little. You are comprehending the essence of Truth from the essence of Christ Mind, which is the only Mind that can comprehend the Truth and Reality of God.
That Truth is necessarily within you, and has been within you since before the birthing of time. It has been with you since before a tiny, mad idea seemed to creep across the expanse of your mind and you chose to believe it. That Reality cannot be taken from you. And it is from that Reality that you have awareness of your own existence. It is from that Reality that you gather the fuel, so to speak, to create the perceptions that you most desire. And the perceptions that you most desire are precisely the ones that you are experiencing in any given moment.
Now, to those of you that were abiding in Reality as you heard those words, you immediately know that that means that at no time and under any circumstances are your perceptions being, shall we say, thrown upon you from some source or force outside of you…that in each moment, you–and you alone–have created the perception, and therefore, the experience you are having within the field of the mind, for no other reason than that you have desired it.
This is why the very pathway of awakening, regardless of the form it takes, is always a retraining of the mind. It is a decision to choose to discipline the mind in each moment, to teach only Love, to hold only loving thoughts, to recognize that there is no such thing as an idle thought, since each thought or perception held in the mind immediately generates your experience. And that experience is like a pebble dropped into a pond that sends a reverberation, a vibration, throughout the field of your being. And that field goes far, far beyond what you commonly perceive to be the boundaries of your body.
Beloved friends, you will only experience what you desire. And that is why desire is always the first and most fundamental key to the process of awakening. It is why desire is the energy known equally by all minds, in all kingdoms, in all dimensions, in all worlds. It is by desire that you choose to relinquish the value you have placed upon limited perception. It is by desire that you decide to teach only Love. It is by desire that the Kingdom is restored to your mind. For it is by desire that you have been birthed from the Holy Mind of God.
The simplest way to discover what it is that you desire in any moment is to simply stop and observe,
What thoughts are currently taking place within my mind? How am I perceiving the world that seems to be around the body?
And most especially,
How am I perceiving myself in this moment?
And with honesty you will see quite quickly and quite easily what it is you have most desired to experience in this moment.
It can, indeed, be quite shocking when awareness begins to turn back on itself to observe the mechanics of its own thinking processes in the world, and then to hold the thought that the thoughts that are, indeed, dancing in the mind are there for no other reason than that they have been desired by the Truth of who you are. And you are that power–that power–which has been birthed from the Mind of God…made in God’s image, that is, with infinite power, to create what you choose to experience. Desire, then, is integral to the understanding of the very process of transformation, for what you desire, you do experience.
When I walked upon your plane, your planet–which, by the way, does not exist independent of me even still, and exists nowhere save where you and I are joined as one–and that will give you something to think of…when I walked upon your planet as a man, seemingly cloaked in a body or as a body, I, too, had need of learning to observe the nature of my own mind, and to discover what it was I was desiring in any given moment.
Vigilance for the Kingdom means to retrain the mind until it desires only Love, only the Kingdom, only enlightenment, only peace, only Reality. And when the mind has been so retrained, in that moment there is no longer any sense of a separate self struggling to find God. There is no longer any sense of a separate self who knows lack. There is no longer any sense of a separate self that is unworthy of being the embodiment of Christ. And in that moment, the body can seem to continue or it could disintegrate.
And, at any rate, the body itself will be perceived in a very different light. No longer seen as something dense and hard, that seems to separate you from your brothers or sisters, it is seen only as a dance of shadow that provides Christ an opportunity, temporarily, to speak the language of those that believe the body is yet real in order to communicate, to drop a pebble in the pond, that sends a reverberation, a vibration, through the body that is emanated and is recognized by everyone–perhaps not accepted, but recognized.
This is why you’ve heard many, many stories, some even related to me, that when a master, to use that term, walks upon the planet, something occurs in the energy field, the mind of those in his proximity–or her proximity. There is an energy that is transmitted. It is not that the master changes them; it is that the Truth in them is suddenly quickened into at least a very temporary remembrance of what is true. And an illusion can be dropped. Or perhaps, all illusions can be dropped.
The body becomes almost a magical means of communication. It appears to be something solid. It appears to be who you are. And yet, when the mind has been retrained thoroughly, and purification has been completed, the body simply becomes transparent and meaningless–except for the extension of the Light of Love.
Now, I have shared with you many times that to awaken as Christ requires that you begin your journey as Christ. It is not possible to transform yourself in order to become Christ, but it is possible to simply accept the idea of the Truth, and then let that be the foundation from which your life expresses itself. So that you begin to think with Christ. So that you begin to breathe with Christ. So that you begin to envision with Christ.
The Way of Transformation–and please listen carefully–is not a process of changing the unworthiness in you to the point where, finally, you’re knocking at Heaven’s door, and you then awaken. Rather, The Way of Transformation rests on your decision to accept the Truth that is true always:
I and my Father are One. Now that that’s out of the way, how would a Christ live in this dimension? How would a Christ bring himself or herself to each moment of experience? What voice would Christ listen to? What vision would He serve?
The struggle to awaken is the very obstacle to its accomplishment. And that is why the five minutes as Christ was given to you as a very simple exercise. And if, indeed, you desire Christ above all things, would you not participate in it each day? For that which you desire and love is that which pulls your attention to it. If you love Christ, then let Christ pull you, so to speak, attract you to spending five minutes a day in the realization that you can only be what you are created to be.
And having accepted that as the Truth, then inquire into your own Christ Mind on how you will live this day. For the mind that is awakened sees no distinction anymore between being here and not being here. It sees no distinction between Heaven and Earth. It sees no distinction between eternity and time. It sees no distinction between the non-material and material, or physicality. It sees no distinction between the extraordinary and the ordinary. But rather, Reality is returned to the mind, and it suffuses what the mind experiences.
And the literal world that you thought you used to know–buildings, cars, governments, and all the rest–simply becomes a temporary harmless illusion that seems to have “hoodwinked” (that is a very good term–hoodwinked) your brothers and sisters, who are a part of you.
And because the world is now seen in its transparency, it is no longer fearful to you. And you are free to walk and abide in it as long as the body lasts–quietly, joyfully, going about your most extraordinary ordinary tasks, except that they have become translated into the means whereby you demonstrate the Truth of Love to the world.
Reactivity, suffering, doubt, depression–in other words, dis-ease — can only be the reflection of a decision to use the power of the mind to desire, and therefore to perceive and experience, what is unlike the Truth of the Kingdom.
Freedom, peace, unlimitedness, and above all, fearlessness must necessarily be the result of the decision to use the power of the mind to remember, to realize, to abide in, and to extend the Truth that is true always. And then the passing phenomenon, called life, is simply seen as a delightful dance. It has no purpose in and of itself. Once, you gave it a purpose unlike God’s. But as Christ, the purpose that you see in the world is shared by your Creator with you, and your will has become the same as God’s: merely to abide and to be of service in the process whereby those that have been “hoodwinked” can remember the Truth and become free. And it no longer matters how that occurs, that is, what form your teaching occurs in. It’s all the same. And you see no difference between your form and someone else’s, for you will recognize the teachers of God.
And where you are in any moment becomes a divine gift, literally dropped in your lap as an opportunity to enjoy the remembrance that you are One with God–that everything you’re seeing is a passing illusion, in the sense that it used to have a purpose that seemed concrete and that purpose has dissolved and gone:
Where did the world go? I used to think it was a fearful place. I used to think that I had to get ahead. I used to think that there were those who could victimize me. Now I just see harmlessness. I see nothing out there that can add anything to me. I am simply at rest and at peace, delighting at play in my Father’s Kingdom. And where I am, Christ abides.
So the distance from where you may yet perceive yourself to be and where you may perceive us to be is only the distance of a decision. That decision waits upon your welcome. And no one can take from you the power to decide to own your identity as God’s Child.
Look well, then, in this moment. Stop and look within the mind. Then observe the simple day that you’ve been living thus far. And ask yourself what have you desired in this day? And allow memory to bring to you choices that you’ve made. Look upon those choices for whatever feelings, perceptions, thoughts you may have had. Look upon them with perfect innocence. Simply observe:
Oh, in that moment I was certainly not desiring peace. In that moment I certainly wasn’t desiring perfect remembrance. Hmm…how interesting.
And if you can find a moment in this day that you have lived so far — even if, by the way, you’re listening to this tape five minutes after you get up out of bed–if you look well into those five minutes, you just might discover that there has been at least a moment in which you were not deliberately choosing to desire remembrance of union with God. Now, does that mean that you’re walking around saying,
I desire union with God. I desire union with God…?
No. Those are just words. The desire is a feeling. It pervades the heart. You might say you feel it in the body, which is really just the depth of the mind, anyway.
Look well and see if there was a moment in which you were using the power of the mind to decide against the Kingdom. When you find that moment, just look at it, observe it with innocence, and simply say,
I could have chosen otherwise.
And that is the simplicity and the power that the Kingdom is!
The world remains uncaused by anything outside of your own mind. Yet within it, you are given complete dominion. This means that within the One Mind of Christ, if you would perceive it for a moment as an ocean, individuation occurs; individual waves arise, made of the same substance — perfect freedom, perfect knowledge of, and union with, God. And in that freedom, the power to decide or to desire is present. And desire begets worlds without end. That is what your entire planet once came from. That is what your entire solar system came from. Your entire universe was born of desire.
The key, then, to the transformation of your lived experience, while the body lasts, is to assume complete responsibility for how you are choosing to use the mind. Remember you can only think a thought; you can only have an idea. That idea cannot enter your domain, over which you have complete dominion, unless you have sent it an invitation. That is simply the way it is. And it is a mirror of what God is–infinite and perfect freedom. That which I refer to as God simply never deviates from desiring only the extension of Love, the birthing of that which is like unto Himself–you. And your will is joined with your Creator’s when you decide to birth only that which reflects Love–the good, the holy, and the beautiful.
The mind, as you’ve come to know it, will deceive you into thinking that,
Well, if I live that way 95 per cent of the time, then, what the heck, 5 per cent of the time I can do something else.
And that’s absolutely true. And yet, the more you come to truly desire only that which reflects the Truth of who you are, you will be able to tolerate less and less variance within yourself.
This is why, when any mind truly begins to awaken, it becomes more and more painful to continue certain thoughts or behaviors that do not reflect the deep desire of the heart. This is why the gap becomes less and less–the gap of unconsciousness, the gap in which the mind tries to defend its choices and perceptions–until finally, it rests in complete vulnerability. It lives in complete innocence and no longer — and please listen carefully–it no longer fears change within its system of thought. It no longer fears being challenged by another mind, because it thirsts only for the creation of a thought system that can birth forth the good, the holy, and the beautiful.
It no longer explains. It no longer defends. It no longer seeks to convince. It merely abides and gives itself over to the stream of Love that would flow through it. And every idea presented by another mind becomes something to live with, something to digest, to see if there is a jewel within it that can add to the beauty of its own expression of the good, the holy, and the beautiful. Everything becomes, what is called, your “grist for the mill.”
And there is no longer a need to be in defense. The body does not tighten. The breath does not grow short. There is only vulnerability. There is no longer a need to hide. There is no longer the need to be concerned with the perceptions of others, since a perception cannot harm you. There is only such love of self that nothing less than God will do!
And so, again in this hour, we speak on the theme of desire.
And we seek to bring you to the point of realizing that desire is the great power of creativity. It is that which births your very experience. Desire is perfectly free. That desire, that power to desire, is within you and you will never be without it. It is impossible to be desire-less, since you can only find yourself to be where you have desired to be. Even if you are in deep and perfect silent meditation, you are there because of desire.
Therefore, beloved friends, please decide this day to take responsibility for what you desire. Recognize that what you desire will be what you experience. Recognize that what you desire literally creates the pathway whereby you will experience either Heaven or hell, peace or turbulence, Love or fear. And in each moment of desire, right where you are, you have just birthed an entire world. For out of that desire, you will create your perceptions of everything from yourself to the farthest of stars, all in a split second, a moment of timelessness.
Part of the journey, then, of The Way of Transformation is learning to transform your lived experience, so that you enjoy it more and more; are attached to it less and less; and fear it not at all. There are many in your world who would yet perceive spirituality as a way to get out of the place in which they find themselves, not understanding that they can be nowhere save than in their own mind. And as long as there is a desire to get out of where they are, they will remain stuck within it, because only Love can heal.
Therefore, the way of healing, which is The Way of Transformation, requires that you turn back to look at your creations, to look back into your own mind and to bring Love to whatever is arising, out of the desire to be the presence of Christ.
Now, does this mean that as long as the body lasts and you find yourself in the world of space-time and movement and all the rest–does this mean that you won’t take the body from one location to another? Of course not! Does it mean that third-dimensional relationships won’t come and go? Of course not! It does mean you become completely free of the old perception that an attraction to a certain relationship is going to add something to you, or the avoidance of a certain relationship is going to keep you safe. Rather, you begin to be free to let the dance of the third-dimensional illusion simply have its day. But it no longer holds power over you.
The highest state of awareness, then, in which perception has been totally cleansed and purified, is one of paradox as soon as you seek to talk about it. For you will look upon yourself and see yourself as a body-mind, with a certain name, living in a certain place on a certain planet, doing a certain thing. And in the very same moment, in the very same field of your mind, you will know that you are not that body, that you are not that name, that you are not that history…that you are something more, you are something grand, you are something divine, you are something mysterious, you are something beyond comprehension by any mind, at least in the realm of thought.
And you will literally know and feel within the core of your being the Truth of both of those. And there will no longer be opposition between them. You will no longer look at the personality and see a great schism between it and the nature of Christ Mind, for the two will have become merged as one. You will look at the most ordinary events that you experience with your body and see no differentiation whatsoever between that and the Kingdom of Heaven. It simply is arising, and is literally held in, pervaded by, and suffused by, the Reality that is true always.
You will know that you are totally free when you no longer feel any obstruction to whatever is arising in the field of your experience. Why? Because you’ll simply see it as another opportunity to say:
Holy Spirit, what would you have me say? What would you have me do? What would it be like in this moment for me to simply realize that only Love is Real?
And then, you will listen to that Voice. You’ll feel it deep in your heart. And you will simply act on that Voice and none other. You won’t listen to what other minds think you ought to do. You will simply listen to that one Voice. And it won’t speak to you from the ego, for there will be no judgment. And you will simply come and go as one unknown by the world, and yet one who looks to be very ordinary, one who looks to be the same as everyone else. The difference is that though the body still seems to walk upon the Earth, you are literally embracing the Earth. And in you, you will know that fear is gone.
Desire, then–the theme of this hour. And we would wish to extend to you some simple exercises that you can put into practice. We mentioned one of them already. A second is this: Take ten minutes out of each hour. Set your alarm on your little watches. And for ten minutes actually observe how you are moving the body:
Oh, I just got off of the couch and I’m proceeding to the kitchen. Why? Oh, I’m having the desire for ice cream. It has arisen as a thought in the mind and I have given it the power to motivate the movement of the body to take the action necessary to now put my hand on the handle of the refrigerator. (And by the way, I must say that I would have liked to have had one of those then). I am now opening the freezer and I’m taking out the cold little carton made out of the body of some tree at some point. And in it is a substance that some other mind created out of desire. And now I’m picking up a utensil, called a spoon, born of another mind that had a desire to make life easier. And I am dipping it into the ice cream, and now I am putting it into the body, which itself is the result of a desire. And I am creating my experience!
And no other cause is there but this: the arising, the inception of a thought, a feeling, a desire which has birthed the entire movement of a world, called the body, to create an experience of eating ice cream. And you can do that for ten minutes, just by observing what you actually are doing.
Now, what does that mean? It doesn’t mean,
Well, I’m going to work in order to pay the bills.
No you’re not.
You’re going to work because you have held the desire to create something that seems to give you a semblance of safety, predictability and survival. “Job” or “career” is that which is birthed out of desire because of your perception of what you think you need. So you’re not going to the job in order to do something. You’re simply putting the body in the car and you are driving on your freeway.
Begin to learn how to observe without embellishment, without interpretation or explanation, exactly what you’re doing–for ten minutes. Then if you want to go back to being unconscious, by all means do so.
But in this way you will begin to discern something that is also going on the whole time, like an underground current or river. For because you are Reality, there is always the desire to extend the good, the holy, and the beautiful. And by observing what you’re actually doing, you’ll discover that you’re actually succeeding at that far more often than you give yourself credit for. You’ll begin to see in some of your ordinary smiles, in the decision to take a card and send it to a friend, in the decision to refrain from a hurtful word–you will begin to discover that that, too, was birthed from desire within your holy mind.
And you will begin to taste that there is a depth to you that is already beyond fear, already beyond illusion, already resting in compassion and Love and wisdom and Truth. You’ll begin to discover that you are already having many successes upon which you can build, many successes that you can acknowledge within yourself as a way of getting the taste, the feel, that,
Surely, Christ does dwell in this mind.
I once suggested to you that you remember only your loving thoughts. But the trick to that is that you must first become aware of them. So many become trapped in the depression and anxiety and insanity of the mind because they put all of their energy into perceiving what is amiss and no energy into perceiving their success as Christ.
So, in each ten minutes, learn to develop the ability to observe what you’re really doing. And when you stop at your coffee shop on your way to your job, and you go in and you give some money to the person who gives you your cup of coffee, and you look them in the eye and you smile and say, “Thank you,” you have just succeeded. You have communicated Truth. You have remembered that the one in front of you is worthy of your respect and Love. And that is a success!
Each time you can interrupt the momentum of the mind for perceiving nothing but problems, you’ll begin to discover that the underground river of the Mind of Christ is yet within you still. And as you feel your successes more and more deeply, that in turn builds your desire to live in that stream. And moment by moment, day by day, you will cultivate the power necessary to be identified with only that Mind.
And for a while, it will seem that there are two thought systems–the old one that you used to be identified with and the one that seems to be being birthed within you–you’re really just remembering it. But you are choosing to bring the discipline necessary, the vigilance necessary, to retrain the mind to be identified–not with the realm of illusion but with the stream of Reality that is flowing through you, unimpeded, unobstructed, throughout all eternity, without end. Hmm…
That is the one gift time provides you. That’s all there is. You can’t use time to store up wealth in some bank account for the future, since the future does not exist, and you have no control over what will happen to your golden coins in your world. Time has only one purpose–the purpose the Comforter has given unto it. And that purpose is the Atonement of the Son of God.
Now, all of that sounds very lofty, and the mind goes,
Well, yes, of course. I understand that perfectly well, thank you. Good day!
And then, that very mind goes right back to its same old patterns. Having heard, it has not heard. Having tasted, it has not swallowed.
Until you decide to seize time, recognizing its great gift to you–not as a punishment, not as a duty, but as an opportunity to become wholly free, and to smile within your heart because you know that you are One with God…to seize the opportunity to discipline the mind, so that it comes to be identified with the stream of Christ Mind, whispering like a quiet voice underneath the roar and din of the ego’s conflicted world, filled with fear and doubt and judgment and the need to be right, the need to make others wrong, the need to believe that there’s some power source outside of itself…when you awaken and realize that the Truth is true always, you will not ever complain about a moment of experience in which you have the power to desire differently.
For as you desire, you will perceive. And as you perceive, you will experience. And the whole game is simply this: you’re totally free. Right here, and right now. You can’t do anything to become free. You can only remember your freedom by how you choose to use the mind in any moment.
Time is an illusion. And the things that pass by, the phenomena of space and time, are just shadows that you have interpreted in a certain way. There is no gain; there is no loss. There is nothing to fear. The world can add nothing to you nor take anything away. You’re merely here in this temporary classroom with an opportunity to do what any master in any dimension can do, for you hold the same power as I do–you hold the power to teach only Love. And what you teach, you must necessarily and immediately learn.
Therefore, learn well to observe the mind:
What am I really desiring?
What do I wish I were desiring? What am I really desiring?
…remembering that everything is a neutral event. It’s just a learning experience, that’s all.
Separation does not exist. The Truth is true always. Death is unreal. You are Pure Spirit. Time is just a context. The world is harmless. You cannot be a victim. You are free. The Atonement is over. The ascension is completed. Once you get the message, hang up the telephone and get on with it by choosing to bring that Reality into the dance of shadow called “this world.” For what good does it do to pray for freedom in the future? It is everything to abide in freedom now!
One last thing about desire. The egoic mind, which is made up of attraction/aversion, judgment, either acceptance or aversion, or hatred even,
This is right, that is wrong; this is good, that is bad …
Also be willing to embrace and accept the results of what you’ve been desiring. When you dip your spoon into your ice cream, enjoy it, embrace it as the effects of your desire.
And when you buy an automobile that breaks down, train yourself to embrace it and enjoy it, just like the ice cream. Why? For a very simple reason. If the egoic mind judges things as right or wrong, if you judge the ice cream as “good,” but the breaking down of the car as “bad,” what mind holds power over you? Are you free in that moment?
My car just broke down. Oh, but there’s such a beautiful sunset! I think I might as well sit here and let the stars come out. After all, I really wasn’t going anywhere anyway.
Mind is everything. And if you truly desire more than believing in Christ, you must assume the responsibility for transforming the mind by using your very ordinary moments in which to see differently. And as you reshape how you use the mind, in every moment, you will come to taste profound freedom–a freedom that will carry you instantly far beyond the things of space and time. And they will seem to be arising within you and passing away within you: universes, arising and passing away, within the Holy Mind of Christ.
That is the great gift given unto you, then. And as we continue in this Way of Transformation, as you can see we’ve come around again to an old topic, called desire. What are you worthy of desiring the most? You will, indeed, discover and create your pathway to your own consummate awakening.
And, just to add one final thing, there can be no end to the Mind of God. You will abide forever within it, like one who abides in an infinite forest. Why not be at play in the Kingdom?
Enjoy your exercises! Some of you will actually do them. And those are the ones who will taste a deepening remembrance of the Truth that is true always.
And so, be you, therefore, at peace. And again, we extend our thankfulness to you for having set aside the roar and din of the world to abide with us in this hour. For you see, communication is the great joy of the aspects of the Sonship who choose to come together to delight in remembering the Truth. Therefore, it is our delight to create communication devices to join with you. And you have a saying in your world, that “it takes two to tango.” So, therefore, thank you for joining with us in this celebratory dance that remembers the Truth!
Go, then, in peace.